What has become of it?
Like the Moon,
stepping in front of the Sun.
What remains of it?
Dried Flowers
Photos
old letters
notes and poems.
I bear these cruel scars.
Forgive me god,
but inevitably in my heart,
One recants every gesture.
What has become of it?
Like the Moon,
stepping in front of the Sun.
What remains of it?
Dried Flowers
Photos
old letters
notes and poems.
I bear these cruel scars.
Forgive me god,
but inevitably in my heart,
One recants every gesture.
It’s Been Awhile,
since I last saw ya.
Sleep was always easier
with you beside me.
See no reason to.
You were my reason.
So I write, paint and walk
Sooner or Later I’ll pass out.
I invoke Your Picasso face
your morning eyes,
I provoke the anamnesis of those crazy times,
and the era of our love.
“No,” I told her over the phone.
“I don’t have a girlfriend.
Did ask a woman to go to a movie;
venturing for a friend.
Got a maybe.
didn’t follow through.
probably good that way,
maybe not.
Honestly,
I’m a little paranoid
and a bit too complicated.”
Taxi cabs.
Street lights.
Neon signs.
Thunder storm.
Take cover in a bar.
Have a Heine.
Flirt with a long legged lady;
her black hair danced with her raven wings.
Outside
a vestment of stars
blurred
by rain.
A whiplash of light,
unmeasured fury
permeates
the sky.
Blisters form on my heart
Don’t think Aloe or Vitamin E will help.
Transparent heart,
what inhabits thee?
What is submerged in the honeycombs of your soul?
Fingers touch.
And the river rises.
The light wore away;
albeit, the heart still remains,
braised
and seared
yet scattered,…
-Hash Browns; Scattered, diced, covered, and smothered?
-Here! That’s me!…oh miss, Got any Tabasco?
1
I live in a house that is half-done?
Plywood floors, glued and placed together,
made to stay with nail guns.
Empty shells and miss-fired nails settle about.
My whole life is packed away in tomato boxes and milk crates,
climbing the four plastered walls of my room
and two storage bens.
The pieces I do pull out, clutter the floor,
to sleep with the dogs, dirt and fleas.
2
I recline in my half-made bed
half-dressed,
gazing about the half-lit room
which bicircumvents me.
I perceive things in halves:
Halfized.
I revert my glare to my half-bulging stomache.
It’s bulging not from food,
but words.
Words from this book and that.
Words from this voice and that.
I taste from each,
putting down
that which is left half-read,
half-heard.
I only have half the time.
The corporations and government have the other.
2.5
I do not eat as others,
finishing all that is on my plate.
I eat as a chef,
tasting
before I send the dish away.
‘How do you know it’s good,
if you don’t try it yourself’
So when I sit and eat as others,
my meal departs with the waitress
half-completed.
Half-eaten.
And I, half drunk
on a half carafe of red Chilean wine.
3
I have forgotten my childhood,
vanquished,
and repelled it from my truck window.
Pieces of my life fly about the black tar river,
run over by slick rubber tires,
jerked up into the air
to catch on a grill,
or float half-chaotically down upon the river again;
sooner or later, to be picked up by a prison detail.
I only have half a life.
Do I have enough of it to be honest?
How can I be more then half-truthful
anymore.