2020, New Poems: workings and beginnings., questions

Is the cause of the suffering within life the letter ‘I’?

The external world
and how we experience it
is constantly changing;
as we are constantly changing.
Our sensations,
our minds,
our consciousness,
our character,
all are in perpetual flux.

Trying to identify a permanent self
is futile;
because a permanent
or independent self really doesn’t exist.
So as one quests for the cause ,
the why,
for suffering,
one sees that everything is fleeting,
and changing;
there’s nothing one can put your finger one,
to say,
that is the cause of the pain.

it’s sort of like saying,
one was born on this day,
and that was when I began,
but what about nine months before ,
when the sperm met the Oocyte,
and formed the zygote.
or the meeting of ones mother and father,
and on and on.

So when some one calls me white,
it is not true.
I have Celtic, Pike, Norwegian, Frank, Roman,
Cherokee, Iroquois, Bulgarian, Bavaria,
Neanderthal, Anglo Saxon, Norman,
Denisovan, and on and on.

Is the cause of the suffering within life the letter ‘I’?

2020, New Poems: workings and beginnings., Uncategorized

Hey, Hey, Hey [a night at the opera]

Hey, Hey, Hey
[a night at the opera]

Wolf glances up
through the glass walls
which line the kitchen.
People, waiting to be seated,
stare in
at the kitchen exhibit
of controlled chaos.

Wolf spots Miss Tiggers
in her black dress,
cut low
freckled cleavage
and then goes back to
making deserts.

He spins around
and takes some more orders
from the printer
as it prints ’em out;
and goes about
building plates of sugar, flour, and cream.

He starts to hum
and a song comes out
from under this breath,
as he puts the desserts
upon the stainless steel shelf
and begins the next order.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
lookin’ thro’ the window of my cage.
watching her with my gaze.
singin’
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

Wolf spins around.
opens the cooler door behind him,
grabs a Crème Brule
and spins back around.
to the rhythm of the song in his head.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

He rolls Raw Sugar
over the top of it,
levels it out.
reaches out,
grabs the torch,
precedes to light it,
and then flips it,
singing his little song.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
looking thro’ the window
kinda going crazy
thinking ’bout a lady.
singing
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

He drops the Crème Brule on a plate;
he’d ready on the stainless steel shelf
drops a Madeleine on the top,
dusts it with powdered sugar,
and starts to the next order,
singing.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

2019, notes, thoughts, Uncategorized

Thought 13dec2019

life is a frightful entity,
stupid, crude, and cruel.
It can not be helped.
Albeit,
we are responsible,
and must hold ourselves accountable.

It has been written
and preached
when one is born,
and immediately is guilty.
How can that be?
Is being innocent, a crime?
What is the crime, really?
I have a wild impulse to smash something.
to completely let loose
with a baseball bat.
but where?

2019, New Poems: workings and beginnings., notes

Every time Wolf walked upon the line,

Every time Wolf walked upon the line,
He’d touch the French Stove
With his fingertips.

As he dragged his fingertips
Across the hot metal,
The heat burned through his skin
To warm his soul.

It reminded him of his grandmother
Of the mornings he’d sit at the table,
watching her cook,
And listen to the pans
clanked on the hot metal of the stove,
And she’d tell him stories,
Of the past, and her imagined future.

And he wondered,
Why every emotion costs so much.?

2019, New Poems: workings and beginnings., questions

Question

why do we do the things we do?
why are we the way we are?
with traits like shyness,
Generosity
Integrity
Loyalty
Devotion
Loving
Kindness
Sincerity
Self-control
Peacefulness
Faithfulness
Patience
Determination
Persistence
Adventurous
Fairness
Cooperation
Tolerance
Optimism
Spirituality
Dishonesty
Disloyalty
Unkindness
Meanness
Rudeness
Disrespectfulness
Impatience
Greed
Abrasiveness
Pessimism
Cruelty
Unmercifulness
Narcissism
Obnoxious
Malicious
Pettiness
Quarrelsome
Caustic
Selfishness
Unforgiving
Dominance
Confidence
Persuasiveness
Ambitiousness
Bossy
Resourcefulness
Decisiveness
Charisma
Authority
Enthusiasm
Boldness
Proactive
Playful
Zany
Active
Wild
Silliness
Affectionate
Funny
Rough
Talkative
Rowdy
Smart
Fidgety
Lively
Impatient
Stubborn