A Mythological Autobiography of a Wolf, POETRY


The first few weeks were hard,
adjusting to the way of life.
I must’ve wanted to quit a hundred times,
my hand taking apron off
and my feet marching
the rest of my body to the back door.
Every time,
there stood a mountain of a man
between me and the door,
always saying the same thing.
“Are you deserting, private?
Going back into the jungle?’
He’d open the door.
“Just hope you weren’t thinking of leaving without saying good-bye.”
Each time I’d stop;
turning around,
tying my apron back on.
“Just goin’ to have a smoke, sir,
guess now’s not the time”
and quickly returning to dish.
The work was hard and consuming.
I wasn’t used to such hours
and continuous labor.
My hands and arms told the story.
War tattoos telling of my exploits in battle,
as the sue chef would tell me
when he drove me to the park
I slept in at nights.
My mother would’ve told me
they were just scars
showing my carelessness;
however, my mother wasn’t here.
There was only this mountain of a man,
who, in the kitchen everyone called Sarge
He rattled on insanely
about Charlie, napalm, and ‘Nam ,
my father would chatter about
in his drunken stupor.
Each time Sarge dropped me off,
he remarked.
“I’ve an extra room. No charge.
Hell, you could take a shower by yourself.
What a concept.”
Each time I declined,
opened the door, got out of the car,
waited for him to drive off,
than sauntered into the bushes,
until I found my sleeping bag
and retreated into sleep.
I hated the city,
It bore down on me like a living beast;
it’s breath rotten and stagnant,
decomposing in it’s own fecal matter.
It’s roar’n’screams were relentless.
I don’t belong in the city;
I needed trees, mountains, and the stars
not telephone poles, street lights and high rises.
His offer was always tempting.
It was like a huntress
trying to coerce me into her arms,
“Be weary of a white-man’s gifts,”
my father once lectured me.
“It only means they’re after something.”
Each time
I escaped into sleep,
scared and dead quiet,
pleading with my father
wherever he might be,
this man was different,
this brother warrior,
he’d walked a different path than the others.
my father was not here to guide me;
he had chosen a road called whiskey
and left without me.
And my mother, neither was she here.
She, my loving mother,
who had broken the rules of being a society girl
by marring a red skin at her own advice,
certainly not her father’s.
As much as I’d hate to admit.
The man was right,
my father couldn’t conform
to the Euro/Roman way.
It didn’t mean he was uncivilized;
he was taught to live by different laws
and talks to god in different ways.
He attempted to defeat the dark side
by joining with it,
only to be succumbed by it,
making me an exile,
teacherless in a vile world.
I could never forgive him for that.
Everything I’ve learned
has been learned the hard way,
by my own mistakes, anguish,
bile and by all the books I’ve read.
So I allowed that mountain of a man,
called Sarge into my life,
he became my friend and teacher.
And father he helped me.

2018, A Mythological Autobiography of a Wolf, POETRY

a night at the opera

Sarge glances
through the glass
that lines the kitchen
people, waiting to be seated,
stare in;
as the kitchen
shows ’em controlled chaos.

Sarge spots her
In a black dress,
Cut low
Freckled cleavage
and then goes back to
making deserts.
he spins around
and takes some more orders
as the printer
prints ’em out.

as he goes about
building plates,
he starts to hum
and then a song comes out
from under this breath
as he puts the desserts
up in the window;
and begins the next order.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
lookin’ thro’ the window of my cage.
watching her with my gaze.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

sarge spins around.
opens the cooler door
behind him,
and grabs a creme brulee. spins back around.
to the rhythm of the song in his head.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

he puts some sugar on the top of it,
levels it out.
reaches out
and grabs the torch
lights it
and then flips it.
singing his little song.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
looking thro’ the window
kinda going crazy
thinking ’bout a lady.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

he drops the creme brulee on a plate
he has ready on the stainless steel shelf
drops a mandelen on the top
and spercels some powdered sugar over it.
and starts singing again.

‘Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.’

2017, A Mythological Autobiography of a Wolf, notes, POETRY, thoughts

Annie and Mary

it’s funny what pops in your mind
while you’re working.
for me
it was Annie and Mary,
a pair of Aussie sisters I had when I was a kid.
they had totally different personalities.
Mary didn’t bark nor growl,
she just bit ya.
And there was Annie,
she was the sweatest thing I’ve ever known,
she was my best friend,
we played baseball together,
hiked together
even slept together.
But tonight I was thinking
of us swimming in the creek on the farm.

2018, A Mythological Autobiography of a Wolf, dreams

Dream 25 Feb 2018 (wolf stories)

Big boy walks into the kitchen,

Carrying a plastic grocery bag.

He walks up to Sarge

and drops the bag on sarge’s cutting board.

He than turns around

And walks back out of the kitchen.

Everybody in the kitchen goes quiet,

Waiting for

Sarge to snap at him.

But instead,

Sarge just starts laughing.

Opens the bag

And started pulling out the items in the bag:

A rack of lamb, a small bag of.beans, a potato,

A couple of rolls, and two cans of coke.

The silence breaks

As the stainless door to the kitchen

Swings back and forth.

Of course, everybody is talking about what just happened

And wondering what it was all about.

Sarge looks over to Wolf,

“Ok, I know you are wondering what just happened.”

” Yeah. ”

“Well, Big Boy, lost a bet. ”

Wolf looked puzzled. “But what does that have to do with that?”

” that’s what he eats after he gets off.

He bet that for a month. And lost. ”

Wolf just stared at the food on the cutting board.

Sarge continued.

“He bet his meal, and it goes to a dish dog.”

Wolf laughed. “He’s on a diet.”

“Yes, he is now.”

A Mythological Autobiography of a Wolf, POETRY

That younger brother

That younger brother

We all know how it is to be lost,
listless, incapable of facing the world.
Consciousness diffuses and spreads
as butter melts in a plate underneath a heat-lamp.
We try to focus on an idea;
however, the mind refuses to grasp.
In this state of consciousness
an act of humiliation or disaster makes us worse,
plunging us lower into the depths;
into a state where no effort seems worth taking.
The butter underneath the heat-lamp,
a dehydrated brown stain.
When something seizes our interest,
goes our way,
one has energy, velocity and force;
suddenly, meaning is self evident.
It’s all around for the taking or asking.
As we examine our past and moods of defeat,
we experience a feeling of pity and remorse,
that younger brother’s weaker less mature decision.